Chotto update: Did my circumstances change? No. I still feel like a skumbag. But we had Bible study tonight, and I am reminded of the invaluable blessing I have in my team here. The girls here are like none I've ever met before. Some days (recently more often than not), they are my sole reason for wanting to go on. But they are a reason. They are a blessing. Some wonderful words of truth: Romans 8:28-39-And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose...If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up or us all - how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding or us. who shall separate us rom the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written, "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." 2 Corinthians 4:7-9-But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.